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I'm 21, I have no car, I'm about $5,000 in debt, I live with my Dad and I'm gonna get married someday. Right now I have nothing to support a wife with or even myself barely but someday I still see someone in my life and they're gonna be so amazing whoever they are and I'm going to love like my Daddy loved my Mommy but even better then that.



I've cried many tears over my parents splitting up. It ruined me for so long. I was so depressed for so many years. Seeing my Dad on his knees begging her to stay asking her not to step out on him again. All this pain I've kept inside is finally coming out and it isn't easy. So many tears I could cry for the rest of my life but somehow this supernatural joy steps in, and the holy spirit brings joy even when I have so much pain and hurt in my heart deep down inside for so many years. My life was ruined by this, this one thing that will not happen to me, my God is so much bigger and loves so much better then I ever could and He gives me that and allows me to love in the same way. Not a perfect love likes his but one that will knock the socks off my parents relationship for sure.



I have had so many breakthroughs that came on so strong like a ton of bricks coming to my chest then floating away into heaven and onto Jesus shoulders/ he loves me that much to take my pain and whatever happened in the past seems just a memory. It's like I was never affected at all. Jesus' love is so amazing to me everyday I receive this love from Him and I don't even know why He loves me so much but I know He does and obviously chose to. That's why I thank God for His undying, unconditional, perfect, love. My Dad is an amazing man that even though His wife hurt Him so badly and murdered his heart, He still stuck by her side for the kids, for the love he has is like many can't say they've seen I'm sure. Not exactly a smart thing to do but who can judge Him for loving his kids so much and staying here with us no matter what, always for the kids. This boggles my mind. I don't understand it. Who can understand love fully though. I know love! I know God! He has taught me what love means and what it looks like. Now I know what to look for and what I need in a women, not what I was looking for. I need a real women, not a childish immature, all for me kind of girl. I need someone who chooses to love me every day when she wakes up whether I am right there with her or not. I need pure at heart women with skills in dealing with me. Obviously that says a lot, she is gonna have to know ME first before she can do that. Not the old me or what she heard about my past, the me that i am right now and am becoming. I am a very loving man, I don't yell and if I do it's for a good reason, I love kids very much, I want four or five, who knows, maybe six. I love music. I like bright colors so any babies rooms will be bright colored if I can help it. I don't like video games. :( haha. I suck at them! I like some movies if they're really good ones. I love comedy, I'll sit through a romantic girlie movie, I like most action movies. I don't like scary movies very much because they freak me out, I'm not a wuss though. When I tell a kid what to do they usually listen to me and if they don't they gonna get it. I give them a chance to obey then I rebuke them or punish them swiftly and with ease of love. I will teach my children good morals from the day they're born. Church every Sunday. Sunday school. Jesus everyday. Holy rolling before bed... jk. haha. God will be the center of our relationship and our relations with our kids. Even if it gets tough, that's when tough love sets in. Love doesn't always look like a kiss and a hug, sometimes we must rebuke the ones we love to love them. Oh, my wife will have to have lots of patience. I am going to be a pastor someday and waiting on and serving many hearts and lives. So, be proud of us and like what we do or you might not be the one for me. You'll most likely be on the worship team with me leading at some point but I don't see us doing that full time, so not every Sunday, but who knows. It takes me a bit to wake up in the morning so you'll have time to shower if and get me out of bed so I can shower. I like a bath every once in a while. Not often though. I want to get a hot tub. I want to have a pool and a large house, lots of room for the kiddies. A van of course. A truck. And, we'll probably have a fast sports car sitting in my drive way that I will drive around, not that often though, but we'll see. I want an mazda rx-8 someday. We'll see about that though. I like old cars too. Mustangs, road runners and gto's. I am already loosing my hair so don't count on it being on my head too much longer by 40 i'm sure i'll have none around the upper edges. by 50, well, you can see pictures of my Dad when he was 50. I will love you until you're old and grey and wrinkly. We'll have our down times but always seek the Lord for your help in any mess or trouble. Sometimes I like to have my time where I can do my thing which will most likely be playing music, guitar, drums, or recording music. I sometimes spend money I shouldn't so watch me closely or just deal with the money yourself :-). I'm sure that weakness will become a strength once I get out of debt though. I like eating breakfast that is prepared for me I like making it myself too so we can take turns. I like eating lunch at home and I like making dinner and then doing the dishes right after. Then a movie. Our kiddos will bring their plates to the sink and rinse them off after using them. I want to stay right here and live here. I love this place. I would love to have a cabin on the river or by a lake, that would be cool. I would love to see my kids graduate before I reach double nickels. I have a sense of humor that for some people takes some gettin' to. Hopefully not for you. I communicate well most of the time and hopefully we communicate everything well, even the hard things to say. We're gonna make a good team, our kids can and probably will play sports. Whatever sports they want to play. I like soccer and basketball. I like football too. I wanna know everything about you, I want to know about your mommy and you daddy, what they taught you about life, what they brought you up watching on T.V., where you've lived all your life, where you went to church, hopefully you go to mine. I love having fun, I love being a kid and being myself, I'm goofy sometimes. I love going to the beach. I love going to the river in the summer. I love kickin' back and doing nothing sometimes. You're gonna be an amazing wife and an amazing Mom! You will be by my side and with me on al decisions I make and support me and box my ears when I'm being hard headed and won't listen. You're someone special and just knowing your my lady, A lady for God in my life to love me and be by my side, and that we are in love until the death do us part makes me smile really big. It's a really great feeling. To have the Lord lead us as we live our lives for God and knowing God's love will help us through anything always. We are gonna be so strong and if either of us are weak at times we know where to turn always, to the Lord for strength and love and purpose and direction. I'm excited already just thinking about you. I will be patient and wait though for someone so gawesome. Great things take time to manifest and for love and the right lady in my life I will wait until I know for sure and never will I show this to anyone but you. This is to you my love with my dedication and commitment to us and to loving each other. We are gonna do so much together as we love each other. It's gonna be great!

I love you!
Kevin Joel Jaeger